Snapshot Sunday 52
Dec. 29th, 2019 09:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
superbadgirlHoliday whirlwind over! In the time away, I got socked with all of the medical bills from this month's tests. $1270 to basically confirm what I'd already had a good idea of the Dx even before going in. :( Brother, can you spare a dime? Jeez. I won't even tell you the pre-insurance cost. It's appalling.
Visit back to the family was bittersweet. My dad is always a pleasure to visit with; my mother has degraded even from last year, which I suspected because my dad is the one who now answers the phone and with whom I have my scheduled chats - this is not something he enjoys at all (the having to come up with conversation topics) and was always exclusively my mom I spoke to before. Until my birthday, I hadn't spoken to my mom "live" in months. She's got some hearing loss, but refuses to get tested. She also does not tell you when she doesn't hear you, you have to guess. You cannot suggest she go get tested, as she considers that to be nagging her and bossing her around. No, she'd rather suffer a constant state of confusion, which she is sure is dementia. Honestly, it could be but it could also very well be just the hearing causing all of her mental fog issues. The woman's brain is confounding.
She also suffers from debilitating anxiety ... which she also refuses to do anything about. This is a genetic thing, as several of my siblings struggle with it. Yesterday was our family gathering, and the forecast called for a major storm. My mom, my little brother and little sister worked themselves into near physical illness over the very idea of traveling - and NONE OF THEM were even going to be behind the wheel. What a way to live. Or not live, really. Glad to have escaped that.
Also, my eldest sister in law's brother passed on Friday. He was 49. So, while I got to see my brother, my two nephews and my SIL, it was a visit tinged with sadness.
^Taken the evening of my birthday.
^Taken in car today. In home state rather than here, don't let the fog fool you.
^Another car shot. Actually, the only photos I took this Christmas were these. The snow was crusty and melted down, not picturesque.
Visit back to the family was bittersweet. My dad is always a pleasure to visit with; my mother has degraded even from last year, which I suspected because my dad is the one who now answers the phone and with whom I have my scheduled chats - this is not something he enjoys at all (the having to come up with conversation topics) and was always exclusively my mom I spoke to before. Until my birthday, I hadn't spoken to my mom "live" in months. She's got some hearing loss, but refuses to get tested. She also does not tell you when she doesn't hear you, you have to guess. You cannot suggest she go get tested, as she considers that to be nagging her and bossing her around. No, she'd rather suffer a constant state of confusion, which she is sure is dementia. Honestly, it could be but it could also very well be just the hearing causing all of her mental fog issues. The woman's brain is confounding.
She also suffers from debilitating anxiety ... which she also refuses to do anything about. This is a genetic thing, as several of my siblings struggle with it. Yesterday was our family gathering, and the forecast called for a major storm. My mom, my little brother and little sister worked themselves into near physical illness over the very idea of traveling - and NONE OF THEM were even going to be behind the wheel. What a way to live. Or not live, really. Glad to have escaped that.
Also, my eldest sister in law's brother passed on Friday. He was 49. So, while I got to see my brother, my two nephews and my SIL, it was a visit tinged with sadness.
^Taken the evening of my birthday.
^Taken in car today. In home state rather than here, don't let the fog fool you.
^Another car shot. Actually, the only photos I took this Christmas were these. The snow was crusty and melted down, not picturesque.
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