I only found out recently when you mentioned it in another post that you are one of...11? was it? I kind of knew you were from a big family but never thought how many. Must be very, very strange for you out on your own - do you feel a bit like Sam? *G*
Heh. Yes and no. It's a very difficult dynamic to explain accurately, because the memories I have are very skewed and I tend to focus more on the negative than the positive when I speak of the family. That doesn't mean it was all bad, but I'll just say I'm quite content out here by myself...and yet feel pangs of guilt every time I speak with everyone back there, especially my parents.
I guess it must happen a lot - but I always forget to factor in big families when I think of Dean growing up faster than he should. Ok, you may not have had the monsters - but looking after younger kids must be hard when you're only a kid yourself.
In a family the size of mine, there were multiple kids with first-born tendencies. I remember taking care of (or at least feeling saddled with) my younger brother and one of my younger sisters. Simple things, like standing up for them when they got picked on, holding my little sis as she puked all the way to school because she had motion sickness...and I love them to bits, but at the same time they exhaust me still.
That said, I do think Dean grew up way faster than any average first-born would.
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Date: 2007-06-25 04:49 pm (UTC)Heh. Yes and no. It's a very difficult dynamic to explain accurately, because the memories I have are very skewed and I tend to focus more on the negative than the positive when I speak of the family. That doesn't mean it was all bad, but I'll just say I'm quite content out here by myself...and yet feel pangs of guilt every time I speak with everyone back there, especially my parents.
I guess it must happen a lot - but I always forget to factor in big families when I think of Dean growing up faster than he should. Ok, you may not have had the monsters - but looking after younger kids must be hard when you're only a kid yourself.
In a family the size of mine, there were multiple kids with first-born tendencies. I remember taking care of (or at least feeling saddled with) my younger brother and one of my younger sisters. Simple things, like standing up for them when they got picked on, holding my little sis as she puked all the way to school because she had motion sickness...and I love them to bits, but at the same time they exhaust me still.
That said, I do think Dean grew up way faster than any average first-born would.