SPN Gen Drabble: How It Ends

[superbadgirl]

Title: How It Ends
Author: SBG
Rating: ? R
Word Count: 401
Season/Spoiler: Tag to AHBL, Pt. 1, so you can about guess.
Summary: Thoughts before dying.

Disclaimer: I don't own the Winchesters. I wish I did, but I don't. That rat Kripke and all his co-conspirators own them, and I admit they know how to use them. And I hope they all put them back the way we first found them...

Warning: Yeah, it's a tag for AHBL, Pt. 1, and the summary suggests it's about death. So assume it really is. :(

Notes: Okay, I don't normally read or write drabbles. I like even vignettes to be more than 1000 words. But I had to get this out. It joins the likely million other drabbles that have already been composed. Subject to change upon further review. ;)


How It Ends
Sam stared down at Jake. It would have been easy to kill the guy, justifiable even, but he couldn’t and wouldn’t let himself be the damned demon’s pawn. Wouldn’t do what he knew was wrong on several levels. He took a shaky breath and wished with his whole heart and soul for Dean…and then actually heard Dean’s voice and ohthankfuckdeanwasthereandalive. His whole body felt lighter just at the sound of Dean calling his name. He stumbled away from Jake’s unconscious form, shoulder throbbing and jawbone aching intensely. Neither of those things mattered, because Andy’s wireless communication had worked and Dean was there for him. He smiled when he saw both Dean and Bobby up the sodden road.

“Dean,” he said, and ignored the increased pain in his jaw that came when he smiled.

Sam was so damned glad to see his brother. Dean was there. Dean was there. Sam was safe now. Dean was there, and everything was going to be just fine. Jake would listen to both of them together and then things would–

“Sam, look out!” No time. Sam thought he saw Dean running before he arched in sudden, confusing agony. Everything became about that torturous feeling, digging into him and twisting, twisting and he didn’t know what was happening. There was so much pain it stole his breath, or somehow Dean became his voice. “NO!”

And Sam was numb and couldn’t seem to draw a full breath, but he had no idea why. Cold and hot and shadows and rubber limbs and Dean in right front of him. His ears were filled with rumbling thunder. He tried to listen to it and tried so hard to believe it, whatever it was telling him. He couldn’t move, couldn’t feel anything but…strength, arms around him. Dean, Dean, Dean. Pain and nothing and rain and mud and the smell of his brother, but it wasn’t the right scent. Fear. Sweat. Salt. Hands on his neck now, his head wouldn’t stay up and Dean was right in front of him but Sam could hardly see. He should be able to see. Tried. Taste of metal in his mouth. What? Eyes didn’t work well, but enough. Dean’s face was haunted, haunting. Forever.

Sam wanted to say something, he thought, but then tired, sleep and this is the end? More rumbling thunder, Dean’s voice real and scared and lying. Drowning, help. So, so, sorr–

Comments

[meg-tdj.livejournal.com]

*cries*

[superbadgirl]

I keep thinking about those last seconds, how Sam was so relieved and happy to see Dean alive and well and then...he was just dead.

*cries, too*

[sixxsixxsixx23.livejournal.com]

Ouch

[superbadgirl]

*sniffles*

[lark_ascends]

*meeps*

[superbadgirl]

*keeps on sniffling*

(It astonishes me that something I knew was coming could still gut me.)

[aizjanika.livejournal.com]

You made me cry! *g*

::cries::

"...say goodbye, don't follow. Misery so hollow..."[/sings]

[superbadgirl]

Turns out that seeing it in the promos did not lessen the emotional impact for me.

*sniffle*

[gumnut.livejournal.com]

I have to say, that I didn't see the promo, and though the immediate circumstances before this happens foreshadowed the actual event, it still took me by surprise. And I'm still whimpering.

You wrote it perfectly from Sam's POV. My heart is lurching as we speak. I have to see next week's ep, and I wanna see it now ::whines lots::

::whimper:: Thank you for writing and sharing.

Nutty
(::whimper::)

[superbadgirl]

I think the whole of SPN fandom - those deep in it, and those just on the fringes, and those sitting on their couches at home not even realizing there is a fandom - are all wishing for a time machine. How can it only be Saturday, damn it?

*whimpers right with you*

Thanks!

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

Ohhhh..

OHHHHHH...

*sobs*

*hugs you*

[superbadgirl]

All these months later, that scene STILL kills me as dead as Sam. :(