SPN: Crossroad Blues

[superbadgirl]

Oh, Dean. I'd say more, but I just...oh, Dean. I really worry he's going to do something terrible one of these days. I think Sam really worries Dean's going to do something terrible one of these days, too.

Is it bad that I kind of want a Christmas Carol "ghost of Christmas future" to happen to Dean to get him to see that things wouldn't be any better (they might even be worse) if he gets John back somehow? I mean, I want John back...but you don't mess with that kind of stuff without totally fucking everything else up.



This episode was loads better than last week and the week before. The guys are still off, but they were together and they were doing their thing. I nearly fainted when Sam had the laptop open in the diner. ;) And then they followed it up by putting the pieces together...all by themselves? No calls to their roadhouse pals? *faints again* Okay, clearly I'm being tongue in cheek, but, man, it was good to see.

Oh, Dean. Just have to say that every once in a while. The guy never fails to break my damned heart.

The hellhounds? Scary. Scary because they were invisible. Invisible things are SO much scarier than the things you can see - your imagination just goes haywire and fills in all sorts of blanks. The weirdly morphing face hallucinations? Freaky as hell. The guy's wife was especially so, I thought, because she was someone he loved. Unexpected. *shudder*

Loved Dean kicking in the door. Loved him trying it again inside, and Sam stopping him. Hee. Though I don't know why the dude thought it a good idea to go into a room and not lock the door behind him. If I thought demons or hellhounds were after me, you can bet your sweet bippy I'd at least lock the damned door. Even the motel doctor woman had the sense to do that, even if she wasn't smart enough to consider the window. (I knew that one was coming, natch.)

Loved that Sam knew the instant Dean's voice changed slightly when talking to (what the hell was his name - Hudson?) Hudson that Dean had gone to that bad place in his head again. I think Dean's always there, confirmed by the demon, but he usually keeps up a facade. Loved that he won't relent on trying (and failing miserably - and that's killing him) to keep Dean from teetering right over into that bad place forever. That last scene. *sniffle*

Dean with the demon chick. Oh, Dean. I cannot even say how much that all killed me. I know, I know, I've said it multiple times already. That poor man. If he doesn't stop, there'll be absolutely nothing left inside him. :(

And the "soon"? Damnit, most of it looked really good and I can't wait. It's so sad that a part of me hates the holidays just because there's nothing on TV except reruns and schmaltzy holiday movies. Is it December 7th yet?

Comments

[iloveatlantis.livejournal.com]

December 7th? Is that when the next first-run episode will be broadcast?

[superbadgirl]

Apparently. That's only 2 weeks of re-runs, but that's 2 weeks too many. ;)

[iloveatlantis.livejournal.com]

Definitely two weeks too many. That "soon" part was just amazing. The entire episode was great--but poor Dean; I don't see how he can take much more.

[superbadgirl]

I don't think he can take much more.

I hate to say this - I love Dean to bits and it's lovely (in a sick kind of way) to see this playing out, but I feel like Sam's kind of getting the shaft, emotion-wise, this season. All of his emoting scenes revolve around Dean and Dean's reactions to things, which is appropriate, but I still have this feeling they're glossing over his pain about their dad.

I don't why I'm feeling that way. Last year seemed just the opposite, and yet I think even then Dean was given the chance to emote himself. Or maybe it's just that Sam can't be the support Dean so obviously needs, and it shows.

Don't mind me. Just trying to put my finger on things. ;)

[iloveatlantis.livejournal.com]

I agree. They've both lost their dad. Sam has had to put his own grief on the back burner to be the support for Dean. He's grown up a lot, I think, and maybe in a way it's about time that he has had to take the more supportive role--after all, that's what Dean's been doing for him virtually all his life--but I honestly wanted to just grab Dean and shake him at the end of the episode, no matter how much I adore the guy (and I do).

Yes, Dean's hurting, and he does have a really heavy burden on him knowing his dad died to save him, but Sam's also hurting. Sam's lost his father, as well, and now he has to feel he's losing Dean a little at a time. The look on Sam's face at the end of the episode was so heartbreaking.

Honestly, I think John did what he did for *both* his boys, not just for Dean. He had to know that, whatever it is Sam will be facing from the Demon, Sam needs Dean more than he could ever need John. With John gone, Sam still has his brother--the one constant in his life from the time he was six months old. If Dean had died, Sam would be alone, even if John were still alive. Sam would have been vulnerable. He and his dad would never have been able to work together, not for very long. By saving Dean, John was saving both his boys.

[superbadgirl]

I agree. They've both lost their dad. Sam has had to put his own grief on the back burner to be the support for Dean. He's grown up a lot, I think, and maybe in a way it's about time that he has had to take the more supportive role--after all, that's what Dean's been doing for him virtually all his life--but I honestly wanted to just grab Dean and shake him at the end of the episode, no matter how much I adore the guy (and I do).

Yeah, and I don't disagree with how it's playing out...I just would like some deeper hints at Sam's turmoil about John. It's like they had him vocalize it and thought that was enough. Or maybe it's because of his part in the larger arc? U'd rather they don't draw such hard lines. It shouldn't be one arc for Dean, one arc for Sam. It all bleeds together.

Honestly, I think John did what he did for *both* his boys, not just for Dean. He had to know that, whatever it is Sam will be facing from the Demon, Sam needs Dean more than he could ever need John. With John gone, Sam still has his brother--the one constant in his life from the time he was six months old. If Dean had died, Sam would be alone, even if John were still alive. Sam would have been vulnerable. He and his dad would never have been able to work together, not for very long. By saving Dean, John was saving both his boys.

I agree. As much as I loved John and wanted to see more of him (I retain pipe dreams about this), it would have really, truly destroyed the family. It's tenuous right now, but I hope Dean will realize one day that he's the one who needs to realize he's still got Sam, to find a way to work around his grief. Maybe that'll happen once that secret is off his chest. I think whatever it is could also be preventing him from turning to Sam as much as he should.

I couldn't tell if the previews were supposed to imply all that action was to take place in one episode. I don't think so.

[iloveatlantis.livejournal.com]

I, too, think that the secret, whatever it is, is weighing heavily on Dean and affecting how he is relating to Sam--not really in a negative way, if that makes any sense, but in maybe making him more reserved with his brother. I'm really hoping once the secret is out that Dean will realize how much they both need eachother--and that Sam doesn't lose that at the same point Dean finds it again.

[superbadgirl]

I'm really hoping they don't make Sam a Marty Stu. I fear. I mean, it's already been heavily implied that he's "special." I love Sam and all, but that always just seems like a convenient plot device. It reduces him from a person into an ideal.

I have a feeling this year will be a lot of them always not quite on the same page with each other. Moreso even than last season.

[khek.livejournal.com]

Oh, *Dean*!

[superbadgirl]

Exactly. What else can be said?