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I got the job. I have to be honest - despite the shenanigans and ridiculous length of time it took - I knew I would. I am the person who is unfailingly competent. That's my middle name. I think I've mentioned that - I am capable and competent to do many things, I just lack passion for any one thing. I wish I had that passion, because being good at things and enjoying doing those things is different!
I digress. I am now a bit nervous about learning a new facet to what our agency does. Basically, I have been doing the financial side of eligibility for various programs. The job changed from a lot of personal interaction with folks to basically an assembly line model of working on "tasks" instead of focusing on people. It's been a very tough year, and my motivation for the work has waned to the point I wake up daily with a gut ache at the thought of going in and mindlessly pulling tasks.
Now, I'll be assigned a specific caseload of people and will evaluate them for physical needs. I'll be going into homes and meeting face to face and getting back a little of what I feel is actual service. It won't be without frustration - the State has become more and more "give everything to everyone" it seems, and that bit confounds me considering we're not exactly the richest State to be doling out stuff left and right.
Once I learn the rules and ropes, I'm sure I'll be ... competent. LOL.
Time to go get W a nail trim. It's very blustery out there today. The wind is howling. I hope he'll be okay not taking a long walk after as we usually do. This AM's walk it felt as though a very large hand was pushing me along one direction, and holding me back the other. Windy!
I digress. I am now a bit nervous about learning a new facet to what our agency does. Basically, I have been doing the financial side of eligibility for various programs. The job changed from a lot of personal interaction with folks to basically an assembly line model of working on "tasks" instead of focusing on people. It's been a very tough year, and my motivation for the work has waned to the point I wake up daily with a gut ache at the thought of going in and mindlessly pulling tasks.
Now, I'll be assigned a specific caseload of people and will evaluate them for physical needs. I'll be going into homes and meeting face to face and getting back a little of what I feel is actual service. It won't be without frustration - the State has become more and more "give everything to everyone" it seems, and that bit confounds me considering we're not exactly the richest State to be doling out stuff left and right.
Once I learn the rules and ropes, I'm sure I'll be ... competent. LOL.
Time to go get W a nail trim. It's very blustery out there today. The wind is howling. I hope he'll be okay not taking a long walk after as we usually do. This AM's walk it felt as though a very large hand was pushing me along one direction, and holding me back the other. Windy!
